today...
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
High School Not-So-Musical
Highschool was really an awkward time in my life. Looking back... I'm just glad that I got through it all. I actually didn't really like highschool, especially since my school is so cliquey... everyone stuck to their own groups and didn't really associate with anyone else. Or maybe that was just me and 'us'? I remember the days during winter where we'd have to sit outside having lunch while it was raining... I remember greasy hair and pimples... lots of pimples... and super heavy bags, flared jeans - they were so in back then. I'm just glad that that chapter of my life is closed and over now.
Fast forward to my life now, I can see how God has changed me so much as a person and blessed me so many friends. I used to (secretly) agonise over the fact that I didn't have friends and that I wasn't in the popular group, and I used to pray and ask God to give me more friends - even crying myself to sleep sometimes. I'm still not popular, but it doesn't matter to me now. I'm comfortable where I am. =)
Slowly and surely in His perfect time and will, He introduced me to more and more people as the years went on. So much so, that I can meet someone and then 3 months later forget that I ever met them and introduce myself again thinking it's the first time. HOW EMBARASSING TO THE MAX PLEASE!
I'm so much more contented with life now and I'm much happier than I ever was. I don't particularly care what people think about me anymore. I'm my own self and I don't feel like I have to look a certain way to fit it... besides, I like to be my own individual wierd self anyway.
Back in highschool and then the years preceeding highschool, I always wondered whether people remembered me or not. I was always afraid of being forgotten or left out because people didn't know who I was - or they just simply couldn't recognise me. When I used to work at the petrol station, several of my highschool classmates would come into the store and I wouldn't acknowledge them and ask them how they were... simply because I was afraid that if I acknowledged them and they didn't know who I was - wouldn't that be just so embarassing!
ANYWAY the point of this is that... I was facebooking as you do in our generation... and someone added me. I didn't recognise the name at first, then I looked at the picture - and I didn't recognise the person... I thought it was just some random who wanted to add me - so then I went to look at her profile. Turns out she is one of my classmates from highschool. The things is... she is the last person on earth that I would expect to remember me let alone add me on facebook! She was in a totally different clique - our lives were on opposite ends of the world. In fact, I don't think I ever even talked to her in highschool - ever! ...So it's so wierd that she even added me because I might as well walk up to a complete stranger and they'd be on the same platform as "friends" for me. =S I would never have thought that she would have recognised me, let alone knew I existed!
Anyway I'm really glad facebook got invented. It just let's you in on people's lives that you lose touch with and it's also nice to just be ke poh and see what people are getting up to in their lives without being invasive and having to ask. You can see photos and see what they're up to. Just found out one friend went to New York to work, another went to Japan for a holiday, some had babies, some grew fat and yet some are still the same (relatively).
So anyway here's to the people that matter to me...
I was going to put some of my old high school photos up, but then realised I looked so retarded back then.
today...
@8:00 pm
bye bye~