today...
Thursday, 22 May 2008
Emotional rollercoaster
Unfortunately, this week hasn't been a very good week at all. It's actually been very emotional and mentally straining.
(NORA LIKES EGGS!)To begin with, I was super sick on Monday. Coughing like a dog... and nose dribbling as fast as Michael Jordon can dribble on the basketball court. I didn't want to take sick leave since I already took one day of sick leave and one day of normal leave and half a day off last week! So work on I must, in the midst of my sickness. I felt terrible on Monday and Tuesday...
On Monday I also said something at work to my colleague which I probably shouldn't have. Person A told me not to do Person B's work... (even though I did her work anyway) and I told Person B that Person A told me not to do her work and she got offended by the comment that Person A made.
Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue. Proverbs 17:28
And well now my relationship with that Person A in the office is really awkward... and it makes it an uncomfortable place to work now. It's like having eyes constantly watching you like a hawk to do you work, not being allowed to talk with my collegues in my cubicle. It's like walking on glass everytime I need to see her. Had a meeting with Person A about it, had a meeting with the big boss about it, talked with Person B about it - and well it's not resolved and I can still feel the tension there... but anyway, I'm trying to forget about everything.
Today I was driving in the car feeling down - just so depressed about the whole thing. Suddenly I started to cry for no reason! Sitting in the car there crying to myself, talking to myself... must've looked so wierd to outsiders.
Actually, what struck me most was the song that came on the radio just at the time I began to cry. It's a song by Story Side B - Be Still and Know I'm Here.
Later on in the day, one of my colleague shared with us a verse from Psalms 37:23-24
23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD,
And He delights in his way.
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down;
For the LORD upholds him with His hand.
That was encouraging. =)
Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue. Proverbs 17:28
And well now my relationship with that Person A in the office is really awkward... and it makes it an uncomfortable place to work now. It's like having eyes constantly watching you like a hawk to do you work, not being allowed to talk with my collegues in my cubicle. It's like walking on glass everytime I need to see her. Had a meeting with Person A about it, had a meeting with the big boss about it, talked with Person B about it - and well it's not resolved and I can still feel the tension there... but anyway, I'm trying to forget about everything.
Today I was driving in the car feeling down - just so depressed about the whole thing. Suddenly I started to cry for no reason! Sitting in the car there crying to myself, talking to myself... must've looked so wierd to outsiders.
Actually, what struck me most was the song that came on the radio just at the time I began to cry. It's a song by Story Side B - Be Still and Know I'm Here.
Later on in the day, one of my colleague shared with us a verse from Psalms 37:23-24
23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD,
And He delights in his way.
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down;
For the LORD upholds him with His hand.
That was encouraging. =)
Towards the end of the day I was telling my colleagues about 1 Litre of Tears. Actually a few of them like to watch dramas in my office, but suprisingly none of them have seen 1 Litre of Tears! I told them I watched it last night and was crying so much.
Tara: "Oh so you're a sookie-bubba are you?"
weiwei:"Nah, I never used to get so emotional about things like this and I never used to cry as much as I do now."
Tara: "Ohhh... so you've become a woman."
weiwei:"Ohhh so that's what it is... I've become a woman!"
Amy: "Yeahhh... I never used to cry so much either... I guess you just get more emotional with age."
*and we all laughed*
today...
@7:15 pm
bye bye~